loveletter

love letters

i <3

I love life except for when im bored

It happens to me easily

I grow attached then I decide to leave

In and out, just like I breathe 

There is some wine that has it’s cork

What difference does it make to me?

In time I will have my way

And the bottle will be empty

There are girls with bows and strings

They all like to pay for my things

I grow attached and then I leave

Because your money means nothing to me

There are girls who are struck by cupid

And their eyes are set on me

I grow attached and then I leave

You won't find loving inside of me

There is a girl who wont look my way 

And after a year or more

I grow attached and then I leave

How can I love someone who can't love me?

I am sick and I develop a sore

It grows until it cant anymore

I grow attached and then I leave 

Because death means nothing to me

I love life except for when I'm bored 

It happens to me easily

I grow attached then I decide to leave

How can I love if I only love me?

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A Love Story About Yoko and John

Yoko and John met on a cold winter day in New York during the month of December. It was in a bar late at night and they were both drinking heavily, John with Paul, Ringo, and George, Yoko with Kate Bush. Their eyes met and love struck. They would go home later that night together and conceive this love with dirty sloppy drunk sex. It warmed the entire Earth. John’s nose bled, Yoko used a finger. They loved in the face of hate. Nothing could keep them apart, not Paul or Ringo or George, not Americans or Brits, not a million teenage girls, this was the whole world. Their love almost started up the third world war, however the third world war would be started by an uncountable amount of worms taking part in a recession, and weather people know it or not, wanted it or not, the love between John and Yoko Ono kept the world together and filled everyone with a secret warmth. It started in the toes and ended in the ears, leaving people light headed and with butterflies in their stomach. The feeling is equivalent to a sauna or eating pho, world leaders hated this. One day John and Yoko Ono would conceive children, they were bright and hot and made of magma. They had a lot of sex so they had a lot of children. The children were so bright and hot that it was hard for people to be around them, so the children of John and Yoko moved into Icy Fjords up north, into unbearably hot deserts down south, deep inside mountains, and underneath the earths surface. Now that John and Yoko Ono live in the sky with other celebrities like Ziggy Stardust, the children of John and Yoko Ono continue to share love and warmth and keep the world together. If you are lucky you can see the children leave the ground and dance in the sky. This makes you a woo woo. This is what love is.

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Clemency

I made a spell

It worked so well

Lounge in my car

At the funeral homes

Show me your house

What's in your room?

She's got a beetle

And my butterfly knife

Do you like Klimt?

How about Death and Life?

Playing with the cherubs

And stars, and sharp swords

I like you so much, I don't know the words

I like you so much, I don’t know the words

Kill me a bit

I think you're sick

Kiss me in October 

Your favorite magic trick

Bite my little shoulder

Pray before bed

I pray to her

Inside my head

A little green man

And a monster with horns

Pinch me like a spider

Kill me like a widow

Cannibals are scary

Make me pray to Mary

You're someone that

Bugs centipedes and bees

Aggravate me

Then think of babies

And if we split, I'll meet you down in Hades

I'm waiting at the gate, saving you some daisies

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A Mosquito Bit My Thumb

I woke up with a mosquito bite on my thumb, now to start.

It was Lise’s birthday and I hadn’t planned much, just that we would be together at my house. She left to go fall asleep since we were doing nothing. When she went up I started making her birthday presents since I hadn’t previously. I made Lise paper items, drawings, and crap knit objects. I went upstairs to wake her up. Not smoothly. It was a sorry excuse for presents but she took them and tried to seem fine with it.

(a blurry period)

we hear a glass break downstairs and go check it out

(end of a blurry period)

I walk around my house and it’s filled with people, outside there are mostly adults, and inside, younger people. Lise and I walk past a group of boys all of them strong but thin and wearing a style foreign to me, that I haven’t seen. When Lise and I had passed by them, one boy made a comment on how I looked saying he liked it, followed by him saying maybe we would get together sometime. I told him maybe, and then asked for his phone to give him my number. Instead, I tried to type in my credit card information and took his phone with me since it was a long process. The next time I saw him I gave his phone back, he was obviously annoyed by how long I took. After I took the boy's phone, Lise and I went upstairs, but I forgot what happened. While upstairs we met a girl, a goth babe. She started making out with Lise and I, but Lise and I never touched, and the three of us never touched at the same time. After a while the goth babe said she couldn’t do things with both of us and that she had to pick one. Lise decided to leave and I would not see her for a while. The goth babe and I start having sex.

(a blurry period)

I realize I’m with someone else, a sexy hipster chick, and the goth babe was sitting in the corner. The sexy hipster chick and I stop having sex even though it was good and I go downstairs with the boys phone. When I come downstairs I see him, some people, and Lise, all sitting around a table in the dining room. I give him his phone and learn Lise’s leg hurts and I assume it’s bruised (she told me it hurt). I go back upstairs and find the goth babe taking pictures of me, and the sexy hipster chick hiding an assortment of guns, bombs, and ninja stars. I take the lot of it and throw it down the stairs. The sexy hipster chick, goth babe, and I are all very angry. I somehow learn that almost all guests unknown to me have ulterior motives and an ill will to me. I try explaining this to my parents, which I find in a dress and suit. They don’t understand or quite care but instead explain to me that a boy from my cross country team will now be living with us. I am quite distraught by this.

(a large blurry period but I find myself someplace else )

My family and I have gone on holiday and are staying in a sort of hotel, a tall building made from sand and patterned tile with a hollow center and a glass ceiling which let light in. I even see the boy again, and we’re on good terms you know. It's deja vu and I’ve been here before but with no recollection of my previous visits. These are time travel circumstances. I tell my family, or dad all about it, to which he explains that soon I will come close to a sort of confined deity. I think I remember it to be small and ominous for its regular appearance. It puts a spell on me, and for the remainder of my trip I will experience situations that increase in unpleasantness until I kill myself.

( there is a blurry period but I think I’ve killed myself a few times now but keep waking up in the hotel )

I am on a floor near the middle of the hotel where I’m watching my siblings fall from the top floor while a voice narrates their movement and I can only watch. Eventually the ninja turtles come in and save them. I left my dream with some sort of relief that I won’t be hurt till I kill myself. I'm slightly relieved and happy with the ending, but I feel a lot and am quite sad and miss Lise more, also I’m upset that a mosquito just bit my thumb.

5:02-6:11 A.M.